While I am determined to finish my novel this year, as in 2017, I am finding it so difficult to get my affairs in order here. I am what they call, a Midnight Writer. I produce my best ideas at night, because the house is quiet, my daughter is asleep and all of my chores are finished.
I am a little overwhelmed with where to start at the moment. I’ve got 8 pages of a 350-ish page novel finished. It’s not polished, but it’s written. I also have to vamp up my social media presence. I had no idea it was so important. Before this year, I thought it was all just vanity. Silly me.
So now I am constantly torn between the maintenance of this new blog and the production of pages for my book.
I just wish that words flowed as fast as my ideas. I basically have my whole novel written in my mind. I know almost everything that will happen from beginning to end, but the trouble is finding the words to describe the scenery and the emotion behind the characters situation. I think it’s mostly a fear that my descriptions will suck. They’re supposed to though! It’s my first novel. Which leads me to my next issue.
The biggest hurtle for me is the fact that my novel revolves around my ex. I know that sounds silly and disgusting even, but if ever a whirlwind romance there was, that was it for me. He lived in Europe, flew me to London on my first ever trip out of the country and made love to me like no man has since. I’m not in love with him anymore, but he was my first real adventure. He opened up worlds to me that might still be closed without him. He’s also very easy to fall in love with, making him a great leading man in my book. It’s been
a bit extremely difficult to go through my old journals and recapture moments of sheer joy I thought I’d since forgotten. I don’t love him in that way anymore, but I’ll never forget how much I did. I’ll never forget and that’s why this has to be my first novel. The first is supposed to suck and it’s also supposed to be the story you NEED to tell.
I will prevail. It takes 14 days to form a habit, or so they say, and I’m only day 4. The words will eventually flow. This blog will eventually come together. Before I know it, I’ll be previewing my first few chapters here and God willing, you’ll love them.